End Of the Immortal Love .........

After a dedication to "HER", I was once again asked the same questions," Were you in true love or do you still have feelings for "HER" ?, Why have not you told her everything ? WHY WHY WHY ? ".... I shuddered to reply the question, I want to answer and make an end to this mystic titillation but every time i think, I feel more attached.

Leave this .... this enigma wont vanish easily!

So after passing 11 std ( Thank God ! , grace marks played the trick in English), I was getting crazier of her and God knows what crap was going on in my mind. They were a chain of events which were disturbing me like hell !

I forgot to mention,"She" was a captain (Of our so called "Sunflower" house, I was in silly " Lily" house) back in class 11 std. I was a regular late comer( still the same !), used to jump school wall to get in the class after the morning 30 min awful mourning, "PRAYER" ( I miss these now).

That time she told," Parag, I am always standing for the latecomers queue to see your face, early in the morning. The smile is very captivating ! ", I was on cloud 9 hearing the Aphrodite praising me ! I wanted to say same words to her but the coward me, didnt even utter a thanks ! I missed my first chance, the very first chance of hitting at her !

Second time we were standing at our school gates, didnt realize the words which poured, " You will be married to a man like this rickshawalla"( Shit ! what did I say, I didnt mean that !) ...
To my surprise she blushed, "I will be married to someone like you!!!!". ( Huh .... What did she say ? Have I heard its "ME" with "HER"??? Neah ... I should visit an ear specialist later in the day !) I said, "You are really funny .... hahaha....".....
[ How can someone kill his golden chance?? I did ! .... If I were "her", would have taken a clear hit at the dude face, to this reply. Come on she was clearly hitting on me and I dazed her with my stupid reply]
All over I ruined my second chance as well !

12 std was the toughest part of my life. My total career depended on that. I heart was bipartite, one part longing for her, other to my goal. Finally i surrendered to my instincts and chose to part from her ! A week then a month .. two months, passed we have not even talked ! I thought this way my liking towards her would fade away and I can make my way to studies but it was not working that effectively. My friend ( who used to accompany me) rather passed her message to me but I resisted to listen. He put in quite an effort to kindle up the dead relation but I was too adamant to put it an end.

Finally our board exams were up and I passed those quite happily and successfully !
but the guilty of not talking to her for nearly half year was roaring wildly !
I failed to clear IIT-JEE that very year ! I thought i was in a way punished for what I did with her and was ready to bear the burden !
I decided to achieve the very thing that kept her away from me..
Alas ! I cleared IIT-JEE the very next year ... Thank God I finally got rid of the dreadful thought of abandoning her when she was not responsible for any part of it...



Story didnt hung up here .... Stilll more ups and downs in IIT ... stay tuned !